Category Archives: Journal Entry

JOURNAL ENTRY 7.14.11–Ready for L.A. and it’s people

I always wanted to live in New York City. From the time I saw the scene in FAME when they dance in the street, I wanted to move to the Big Apple. But last November I quit my job at Nickelodeon Networks because I realized I wasn’t on the right track. I had a very good position, but it wasn’t the right position.

After about 4 months, I took a trip to Los Angeles to visit some friends and colleagues. I was applying to a program sponsored by the Producer’s Guild of America. While I was there for a week, I seriously considered moving there. But after a few days, I just couldn’t see it. My mind was telling me that I was born to be a New Yorker. Still, I knew that if I wanted to be a writer and producer I had to move to Los Angeles.

Well, I spent 6 months in NYC writing, reading and living the life of a freelancer. I wouldn’t trade it for the world. I needed that time to transform my mind, break bad corporate induced habits and build new artistic ones. My savings took a beating though. So my awesome dad told me to come back home to read and write rent free until I was ready to move to L.A. I’m blessed.

Almost three months back home in Houston, Texas, I’ve officially closed the NYC part of my book. I’m so glad I had this transition time. I’m ready to be an entrepreneur. I’m excited about what I’ve learned about my process for writing and generating ideas. I’m amazed about what I’ve learned about myself. I’m in love with my morning meditation. If I moved to Los Angeles right after I quit, I would have been chasing the wrong goals–working in another good, but wrong position. I’m positive would have burned out again.

When you transfer from the corporate world, you need time off to detox and reframe your mind. I wouldn’t have planned it that way, but I’m so glad I did. If you want to leave your job and you are not sure what you want to do next, take time to figure it out. If you don’t have a dad, family member or friend who can spot you for at least 6 months, (you may not need that long. but it’s a good time frame to work with.) then make sure you save up for a transition period before ditching your ID.

My one-year anniversary will be November. I will be in L.A. by then. I have to be. I miss the ocean. I miss the mountains. More importantly, there are artists in L.A. that motivate and inspire me. I want to be where they are and live in some of that energy. Even beyond the fact that the major film and television studios are there, I want to be in L.A. to be a part of the creative community that is working out side the status quo.

Frank Ocean’s Novacane

Who am I speaking of? If you follow me on Twitter, you already know I am in love with the sounds and stylings of Frank Ocean. I could write an entire post on him and his music. But I will spare you my current infatuation. Just check him out here. (If you like that, check out his work as Lonnie Breaux.)

ISSA RAE’S The Misadventures of an Awkward Black Girl

Then there is Issa Rae. I discovered her earlier this year after my trip to L.A. in March. I attended a web series festival where a series she directed and produced, Fly Guys, was featured. I laughed out loud and then found her online. Months later she is gaining attention and even has an agent. Pure awesomeness. I love New York and always will. But I’m ready or should I say eager about moving to L.A. and the opportunities that are waiting for me there. If I didn’t take time off, I never would have come to this mental space. Very grateful for time off to get clear and get on the right track. My birthday is 9.27.11 and I will celebrate in the City of Angels!

The Fly Guys

JOURNAL ENTRY 7.12.11-A Tribe Called Quest Documentary

I had the privilege to watch the ATCQ documentary–Beats Rhymes and Life:The Travels of a Tribe Called Quest–directed by Michael Rapaport today at the River Oaks Landmark Theater. It was entertaining, insightful and inspiring.

What stood out most to me, and probably most people, were the dynamics in the relationship between Q-Tip and Phife Dawg. It was an emotional roller coaster to say the least. Working in a group is hard. I usually start out excited when I generate an idea with another artist. Over the years though, I’ve learned to be more selective about who I work with, especially if the project will require sharing personal space frequently.

Last week, I had a conversation with a director I was sure that I wanted to work with on a project. But he doesn’t watch television. Now, many respectable artists don’t watch the tube. And every now and then, I give it up. I’m currently limiting myself to movies during the week (2 hrs. tops) so I can get more time working on my scripts and my blogs. I catch up on my television on Saturdays. And if I’m not on my DVR, I can’t watch it. That helps me streamline my viewing and prevent wasting time surfing through channels and accidentally watching 3 hours of Basketball Wives.

I do this because I love television dramas and need to cutback. But the fact remains that I love television. It can be a wast of time. It can also be an awesome vehicle for storytelling. Can I works with someone who doesn’t understand my witty television references? Shouldn’t the artists I work with be able to talk about the writers or actors of my favorite television shows—Mad Men, True Blood, Dexter, my new favorite Sons of Anarchy? And what kind of person has not seen The Wire?

Maybe I was being small-minded when it comes to television. But there were other misfires. We just didn’t see the industry the same way. Like a rookie, I debated my position for over an hour. I had to go for a run to clear my mind. Moving forward, I won’t be looking for someone who thinks just like me to work with on future projects. Still, I think there has to be a shared value system. And I think it would be hard for me to work with someone who saw in value in classic or current dramatic series.

Back to the documentary, the pervasive thought I had when I left the theater was, there is a difference between those who make art because they are good and gifted and those who make music because there is nothing else on Earth they would ever want to do. So who is who in my mind? Well, I don’t want to color your viewing. Do your best to find this at your local theater. If you are a hip hop head or a Tribe fan (is it possible to love hip hop and not love Tribe?) check this out. Directed by Michael Rapaport and distributed by Sony Pictures Classic.